a venting, Ni Hao!!! :)

So this year is coming to an end. I'm having to apply for a job, get ready for my cross cultural, and wonder about my friends. Who's all that's going to stay here for sure. How am I going to keep in touch? Will I really try to keep in touch? But for now I need to stay focused on what's at hand. I'm definately not happy with the results that I've gotten adn that I'll be getting. I've worked hard this semester, and it's all gone to crap. I hate being pulled thin by my classes alone. Then I have my extracuricular activites that I wish to do, then I need to figure out cna I be a friend who's active in their lives and still be a studious person. Ah, I just give up....not really. I don't quit, it's not what I do. I would like to though. I just wish I had help this past semester. Of all the semesters of needing help, I needed for this one. How is it that they were too busy, or they wanted to hang out with their freinds, or they "forgot" to get back with me. Just say, "Sorry, it's not on my to-do list." You know, that would make life easier. yeah I'm up set and I dislike it, b/c I cna't do anythign about to fix it. There are 3 of us in the major and they are just too busy/"busy" to study.

THe year is almost over, I have one more day, and a bunch of papers to ahve signed, some funiture to move out, some papers to copy, and some trips to go on. I hope this summer I'll be able to rest and still be able to get a job. I sure hope everyone else is doing well, and their GPA is taking advanage of how well they are doing. I hate GPAs, I'm a smart person, but my test grades are the only things that'll keep me from getting to Grad. School, and now insurence will be higher b/c I don't ahve a 3.0 anymore. You see, all of this is dependent on just two digits and a decimal point. But I live here in this culture, so i have to adapt to is and find a way to succed in what they reaquire of me.

I hope you're doing ok too. I really haven't seen much of you. I'm saddened by it, but am I able to? Should I be? Why? Does it really matter? Well I'm sure you're better off than me. hahaha I'm sure your summer will go well and you'll find out what you're doing and be able to work are for what it is that you're hoping to achieve. Don't fret b/c you'll find it all out, it jsut takes time. I hope you're patient enough to relax and wait. :)

Good Night! I have two more exams to do and hopefully I'll recieve good results. Wish me luck! I wish you luck for all you're doing and your strength. :)

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