Welcome...

Life is something that is wonderful and depressing at times. But being able to wake up each day and thanking the Lord for being able to wake up and function throughout the day. I'm not a huge religious person, as I would say some people are, compared to me. I believe in Christ, His teaches, the way of life we should leave, but I still question why he wants to do things that way. Actually I question a lot. I believe that questioning God about the things he does is important, as long as it's respectfully. I question why I have lived a life I have, why He wanted me to be the way I am, and why it's my life that is special...why am I special to Him?

I don't expect an answer to any questions, but I know that I'll find out soon...though soon is a relative term. Out of all my life's moments, my favorite is the feelings for someone right now. She's challenged me, from being a better student to being more confident. She doesn't know this, I'm not sure if she'll ever know. Hopefully I'll tell her soon, we should be getting together for some chill time. I really love those moments b/c I can talk to her with no influence from anyone. But the only thing I'm unconfident with is that I feel I don't have good topics to discuss. I can chat with my friends differently but it's hard to keep the conversation going. It's a goal of mine to be comfortable with her as I do with my friends, but still care for her, and some how let her know that I care for he deeply.

There are many things that I don't know but I wish I do/did. Knowing all of these things is impossible, so I have to be content with what I'm getting now, and learn to give back with what I've been allowed to have. I hope that someone else out there is struggling with me. And if so, don't be afraid to have help, to give help, or to be called upon. Life is something that is funny, thought provoking, and challenging. I hope someone else will see this too.